My Name, A living memory

19 March 2009

I'm troubled.

Suddenly, I recalled how I met my bf, how we used to go out as friends, how we got together and the arguements we had in these 1month plus.

When I looked back, I find that actually the lifestyle I having now is simple and nice. But many happy and unhappy moments with him.

First, when we knew each other. He came to pick me to have lunch when I'm still working in Scorpio East. Then KTV, movie: Wedding game and trip.

Got together not long, my mum mentioned that she planning to go Aussie to work. This freak me out. Cried like a lil kid as if my momma don't want me anymore. HA... He tried to give me ideas of telling my mum not to go. End up, b4 I wanna tell her, things changed. Shes decided not to go as things over Aussie wasn't planned nicely.

So he offered me a job. That is helping him out in his shop. The first thing I thought of, will be as a couple working and seeing each other 24/7 is not easy. Hes the boss and I'm the worker. After work, we goes back to normal as a couple. It's a challenge and also a risk of having arguements and quarrels everyday. Might give up this relationship easily too.

I agreed. And went over to stay with him and work together. Things aren't great. Had arguements.. I moved back home once, after our conversation in the phone awhile I gave in and he came to pick me up. Things went back as per normal. He improve abit by being loving as a bf. (Because I've been saying he's not loving) I'm happy and it's very. But demands from him seems more and more. He demands more from me in work, and I demands more from him in relationship. Something we need to talk. But after some incidents.. He refused to. Instead of asking him face to face, I tried to sms him by asking for a talk. He didn't reply and he ignored.

It's ok.. Things will turn out to be fine tomorrow.. I always tell myself this.

It sounded like as if we have been together for years. But actually it was just 1month plus.

Recently, I am so curious about it. Who the hell is Jeraldine. Why customers keep asking and he told me it's his cousin. And when I looked at his mum, the mum didn't said anything. Something is wrong. Is that his ex gf who helped him in his shop before? I'm so curious. But I have tried not to know and find out. Things might not turn out to be good. Let time to tell me then. I TRUST him. I hope things will not turned out to be bad.

Dailou offered me a job, asking me to try it out.. I'm considering.. Should I? But what about him? This makes me headache.

There's more I wanted to say in here... But I gonna sleep.. it's getting late.. I will continue another day.. :)

happy smile with pair of sad eyes.