My Name, A living memory

27 April 2009

I feel so stressed out of nowhere...

The commitments I need to have/make to certain peoples and things...

My family as a daughter..

My job as a worker..

A girlfriend for my partner...

and many more...

But these are a few of them I have to commit to.

It's not easy. Everyone don't compromise. Make me to a corner without enough air to breathe. So difficult. I don't look at things very positively. But I'm trying to. My head for all such issues are block-headed. I don't know what to do...

The very first issue is going msia to attend my cousin's wedding, I'm working... I can't go.. I hope my cousin understand me.

The second issue, for me not to go out and have fun, not to go Malaysia to meet up with my friends and do whatever I want, my boyfriend... I know he will be unhappy if I am like this...

The third issue, planned a Song Kran trip to Bangkok on last year December, I couldn't make it. Because the same thing, I'm working... I'm unable to leave the country and have fun like this as I have not learn anything yet from the shop.

The fourth issue, my grandmother wanna go Aussie to visit my auntie. She missed my auntie alot. I was ordered to go with my grandmother cause no one else are able to go over with her first. I guess no one feel safe to let her go herself. Me and him quarreled over this issue. I feel that I have not enough oxygen to breathe. Nothing else I can say. Because I'm in fault again...

I really don't know what to do, I go. No one is happy. I don't go, I think even worst. My grandmother... I'm worried for both side. But it seems like no one knows my difficulties... It's all my fault... :(

happy smile with pair of sad eyes.