My Name, A living memory

28 July 2009

MC for 2 days, breathing difficulties.. and he's on leave too.

Cherishing the honeymoon period now.

As time passes by, will we be like this all the way? So loving, so understanding towards each other, got so much freedom from him, not being possessive at all, accept each others flaws, and so much more that I really unable to say finish.

I really hope it will.

He's such a good bf for now, if he don't go entertainments because of his career. He will be even a better bf.

I tried to be open minded, letting him go, asking him to enjoy himself but I feel so hurt. Just like slapping myself to ask my bf to go nightclub to entertain his clients or whoever. I too kua buay kui liao.. always like this in relationship. I feel so unbalanced whenever he tells me he need to go entertainments.

In this industry, there will always have entertainments. What can I say? I always don't know what is in my mind about him. To think whether to give him my time or not, but the problem is can he give me the time I expect from him first?

I'm very unsure.

Why am I so enthusiastic?

Just being together long ago, I even have the thought of letting go of this relationship. But he didn't done anything wrong. Why should I hurt him? and even hurt myself? I'm crazy. Is all about the pros and cons whether to accept it a not, whether to face it and be understanding a not. This is all the questions in my mind so far.

Anyway, nothing much. always about such problems to headache. SIGH.

Needa good rest now, will be back soon! :)

happy smile with pair of sad eyes.